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[raven]

I am panicking. It is irrational. It is too late to Do Something about it all. I understand this. I am still panicking. There are people drifting about the place looking like serene black-and-white flowers in their elegantly ruffled post-exam sub fusc. I am still panicking. Listening to the Indelicates' ...If Jeff Buckley Had Lived on repeat. This not good and possibly unconscious manifestation of something. Have no desire to be suicidal rock star. This probably indicates I have grown as a person sice I was sixteen. Have desire to be someone who doesn't have Finals. Realise will get my wish if I live long enough, but this is NOT THE POINT.

Panic panic. Please to be talking me down from tree. Panicpanic. Am tired of being calm. Have been very calm, one feels. Almost zen. Have been serene. Have talked other people down from trees.

(Okay, am going to turn computer off and do past question. This will be calming? Maybe?)

(It is a lovely tree. It is beautiful and has cherry blossoms and is exactly the sort of tree I want to be in my next life and for all it is metaphorical I want to stay in it forever.)

(YES MORE PARENTHESIS WHAT OF IT. Tomorrow. Going to meet English finalists with absinthe_shadow. All should accompany. All shall love me and despair.)

eta: past question indeed weirdly calming! Although, dear self: you are twenty-one years and six months old, it is time to outgrow your ADOLESCENT LOVE AFFAIR WITH THE SEMI-COLON.

Comments

[potatofiend.livejournal.com]

Coincidentally, I have also listened to that song a ridiculous number of times today.

No, just, Iona, you are brilliant and it will all be fine. The sooner you start, the sooner you will be finished! And I won't be finishing tomorrow, either, worse luck. Woes.

[jacinthsong.livejournal.com]

Okay, when everyone was saying I'd feel better once they started I was entirely "stfu, no I won't" but the thing is it's TRUE. Once you actually have a thing to do rather than Looming Doom you will go back to the zen and be elegantly ruffled, and it'll all be over soon. *hugs* Have to work on Micro, but come over or call me if company helps. xxx

[jacinthsong.livejournal.com]

Just so you know, I am not a fish. I am also, however, not good at Macro. But hey.

[slasheuse.livejournal.com]

This is entirely true. It gets better. Because the relationship stops being between you and your notes, and starts being between you and the machinery of Finals, which is a large machine and you just have to turn up and essays will happen, I promise.

[chiasmata]

I AM COMING ROUND AND I WILL BEAR SHIRTS.

[absinthe-shadow.livejournal.com]

If actually the tree is nice and you are enjoying it rather than, say, preparing to cast yourself loose into thin air, perhaps you should stay there for a bit? xx

[chains-of-irony.livejournal.com]

Honestly - they do get better after the first one. I woke up and went back to sleep THREE times on the morning of my first one - each time having dreamed some horrid exam-themed dream, and yet for all the subsequent ones I've woken up without trouble. You'll just get into the rhythm of things. It'll be okay. :)

[mi-guida.livejournal.com]

YES. This - this is why I actually want mine to start. This term of revision is lasting forever...

[slasheuse.livejournal.com]

While I would suggest that revision time is a SACRED GIFT FROM GOD *down to her last few hours of it; cries*, I do sympathise entirely. Once the machinery starts it's rather - well, it's the difference between stage-fright and theatre. It's why I prefer exams to coursework; once you get out there, you get this wonderful mental blindness where everything's as it is and there are no choices. It's marvellous.

Iona, please shoot me as a horrific luvvie.

[fe1ipa768.livejournal.com]

So be it

[kuteki.livejournal.com]

It will be a nightmare, but like all nightmares it will be over and on the other side it will be beautiful! I suck at trying to calm people down at this point in time, but try to breathe and in the words of my college Nurse, which I went to see this morning, "Have a ginger biscuit" they cure all! It will be okay! It has to be okay!

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

I am so glad. No, seriously. Flatmates came in with the paper, they said it was a doable one - I have no idea by looking! - and was glad. Love you, am glad you are not fish. May call later and be zen again. (Zen returning! This may have just been a momentary aberration.)

[amchau.livejournal.com]

If it has cherry blossoms, does that mean it's a cherry tree, or are things not that simple?

Alas that I have an exam on Wednesday and cannot nip down to Oxford for tomorrow night. On the other hand, I do love you and am despairing, but would like to think that the two are not linked.

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

YES, RANDOM SPAMMER, THIS IS VERY HELPFUL. GO AWAY.

[amchau.livejournal.com]

P.S. WHAT? THE SEMI-COLON HAS BEEN TWO TIMING ME; THIS IS VERY BAD! I thought my love of the old dot-and-comma was monogamous!

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

Er, I did not mean to imply that I am glad you are not good at macro. You know I do not think you are not good at macro. And also that I would not take pleasure in your not being good at something even if it were true which it isn't.

Um, I am going to go and boil my head now.

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

<3 <3 it is a lovely song. Possibly listening to it 47 times in two days not my best plan ever, however. You = lovely.

[jacinthsong.livejournal.com]

No REALLY, my last question. I am not being self-deprecating, the theory ones were ok, just not the last applied one. Ugh.

<3

[jacinthsong.livejournal.com]

I got one too, omg.

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

Take the opportunity to shout ALL IN CAPS. It made me feel good about myself. :)

[http://users.livejournal.com/selina_/]

The semi-colon; a love that will never perish!

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

No I refuse. You are not a luvvie. You are being very reassuring. Thank you. <3

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

You are a blessing. Thank you kindly.

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

Is very nice tree. Cannot sleep here á la Anne of Green Gables, alas.

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

I'm drinking ginger tea and feeling zen again. It will be fine. *pets you* You, too, will be fine. We will all be fine!