CMOT Dibbler; or why I hate myself today.
Sep. 22nd, 2003 05:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravenI didn't get a Harrison scholarship. Shall we start by getting that piece of information out there? I didn't get a Harrison scholarship.
It's not worth much, and is just pointless, pretentious academic frippery, and I wanted one.
I didn't get one because I wasn't good enough. I said so at the time with my GCSE results, which despite what might have been said I knew weren't good enough. Not for this, exactly; just not good enough, full stop.
I hate it when I'm right.
Incidentally, I won the Margaret Mann prize for English Language. My mother thinks this is very, very lacking in importance.
Incidentally to that, Mrs Mann was the one who rejected me from Stanfield all those years ago.
Fuck it.
It's not worth much, and is just pointless, pretentious academic frippery, and I wanted one.
I didn't get one because I wasn't good enough. I said so at the time with my GCSE results, which despite what might have been said I knew weren't good enough. Not for this, exactly; just not good enough, full stop.
I hate it when I'm right.
Incidentally, I won the Margaret Mann prize for English Language. My mother thinks this is very, very lacking in importance.
Incidentally to that, Mrs Mann was the one who rejected me from Stanfield all those years ago.
Fuck it.
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on 2003-09-22 12:06 pm (UTC)That does mean something. That means a whole bloody lot and thank you for saying it.
I guess if you set yourself impossibly high standards, you have a problem. If you are me and set yourself nearly impossibly high standards, then you have even more of a problem.
*mwahglompschnoogle* (I've been wanting to do that to someone for ages)
Thank you.