hate skool.

[raven]

My insomnia is, er, bad. Am thoroughly and comprehensively sleep-deprived - am having trouble making my verbs agree, which is always a bad first sign - and I have an exam tomorrow and another the next day. I have just today to learn something, anything, about free movement of goods and people, and while I have all my notes right there in front of me, they're not doing that thing where they go into my head. Cue quiet orgies of self-loathing, which have been something of a feature over the last week or so, but my god I am so tired of failing. \

(Or, at least, having the sort of brain that tells me I've failed so often that I don't know when it's telling me the truth. Although in this instance it probably is. Why I am such a failure as a lawyer, I ask you? It's NOT THAT HARD. You can look it up ON THE INTERNET. In CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER. LOOK. That is the Statute of Marlborough, 1267. That is the extant law that means I cannot drill for oil in my back garden if my landlord doesn't want me to. SEE.) And, also, how? I mean, how can I be taking an exam on contract law when I didn't know what it was twelve weeks ago? How does that work?


...ye gods, I am tired. And I think I've got beyond my caffiene quota for the day and it's only 3.45.

Okay, I'm shutting up, I'm going back to work, let's just call that an interlude.

Comments

[subservient-son.livejournal.com]

You are not a failure, and you know lots of stuff - you've already survived finals, so I'm sure you're going to be fine. I know it's bloody irritating to hear people tell you that, but I think it's good for you to know that others have a high opinion of you. As for the insomnia, I remember how awful it is when combined with exam stress - just stock up on caffeine and adrenalin and once it's over you can flop in bed, while jacinthsong and I find time to visit you and watch star trek films.

*Hugs*, thinking of you

[ladyfalcon.livejournal.com]

I am absolutely flabbergasted by the amount of work that goes into becoming a lawyer, after watching several of my friends go through the process. And they are American lawyers. You have to know the long-ass history of the law, but once you've learned it you're pretty free to forget it in favor of more relevant things. I can't even imagine trying to study law when the term 'relevant' can encompass anything that happened within the last five hundred years.

[jacinthsong.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Am in and mooching all evening. Call me whenever you like if you need to rant. Go for walks. You are really really great. xxx

[clubhopper15.livejournal.com]

Do your best to get some sleep.. That'll help you much more than the caffeine and worrying. Fingers crossed for you :)

[msilverstar]

having the sort of brain that tells me I've failed so often that I don't know when it's telling me the truth

That's a good thing to know about yourself, because you have succeeded most of the time. If you study with anyone else, they might give you some calibration.

[gamesiplay.livejournal.com]

No matter how much you feel like you've failed, I think externally and objectively YOU VERY RARELY FAIL AT ALL. (If ever. I mean, I can't think of a single time you've ever failed on a scale large enough to mention, and I have known you for a pretty long time.)

Best of luck. No matter what happens, in two days it will all be over. That's the magic of linear time.

[nos4a2no9.livejournal.com]

*hugs you* And god, I hope the insomnia gets better SOON!