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A pinch-hit story for [livejournal.com profile] macadamanaity in my Slings & Arrows ficathon. She wanted a minor Due South crossover element and no Geoffrey angsting. I failed significantly on both counts. I did try, honestly!

Fic:: Under A Blackened Sky
by Raven
PG-13, Slings & Arrows/Due South, gen. Geoffrey and Benton Fraser.


It started in a bar in the long daylight, where the bulbs were dim and the air smoky, at the precise moment when Geoffrey spat a full mouthful of liquid over a total stranger.

The man jerked backwards, slipping off his stool, and batted ineffectually at his face. The front of his hair was soaking. “You...” he began, but Geoffrey sighed, set his expression into a hooded-eyed mask, equal parts certainty and delusion, and rolled up his sleeves, slowly, deliberately, so the needle tracks were visible.

“...fucker!” the man finished and scrambled away from the bar as fast as possible.

Geoffrey sighed, again, and went back to his drink. It still tasted wrong. Waving a careless hand in the general direction of the bar, he thought about it, and by the time the bartender came close, he’d figured it out. “This isn’t what I ordered.”

The bartender peered at him through the slow curls of cigarette smoke, wafting around between the meeting of their eyes. Geoffrey hadn’t been allowed to smoke in a while and the cravings had died in his blood, but he recognised the nuances of the scent, the way it clung. “Didn’t you?” asked the bartender slowly. And then, suddenly, “No, you didn’t. You... didn’t.”

He took a step back, his hands fluttering through the fog. “That guy,” he said, nodding behind him, “that guy. He looks – I mean, he ordered...”

But after that his voice started becoming fuzzy and static, and faded into an absence of sound. Geoffrey frowned to himself and stood up with care, shifting a plastic packet into his pocket. There was a reasonable sequence of logic here, he thought; clearly, if he had taken a mouthful of mineral water and spat it over an unsuspecting patron, there was someone on the other side of the bar dripping in undrunk Scotch. Pleased with the conclusion, he picked up the glass, walked unsteadily around the place, passing the windows and the swathes of snow, grey cloud beyond, and settled in a seat next to a man staring at a drink in mute fascination.

“Not yours, is it?” Geoffrey asked, and was treated to a flash of blue eyes and a startled expression. And then he knew he was wearing a startled expression of his own, because it was like looking into... something. Not a mirror. More like a forest pool, reflection blurred with the past, water and sky.

“No,” said the stranger. “But I’d make a guess that it was yours.”

His voice was quiet, and less familiar than his eyes. He swirled it around, once, and handed it to Geoffrey, who took a sip and immediately felt better. He looked up to find the stranger watching, quiet and still. “The resemblance is certainly striking,” he murmured. “Would you care to sit down?”

Obligingly, Geoffrey sat in the stool next to him and waved at the bartender again. “Mineral water, please,” he called, and motioned to the other glass. “You don’t want this, I may have spat in it.”

“Thank you,” said the stranger, now sounding cautiously amused. “I suppose that the bartender was simply bamboozled by the resemblance and exchanged our two orders.”

Geoffrey smiled, slowly. “I didn’t think people actually used the word ‘bamboozled.’”

“I can produce a synonym if it offends you.” Still that note of cautious amusement. “‘Flummoxed’ is a good one.”

“Perplexed,” Geoffrey said. “Confounded. Mystified.”

“Confused,” said the stranger. He took his glass of water from the bartender and drank half of it. “People are often confused.”

Geoffrey nodded. “I’m often confused.” He mirrored the movement, drinking some of the Scotch. “Very often. Do you have a name?”

The stranger looked guardedly at him. “Are you wondering, perhaps, if we may be somehow distantly related?”

Geoffrey shook his head, feeling oddly disconnected from the world. “I just wanted to know your name.”

“Benton Fraser,” was the reply, and the words were self-contained, cold, Geoffrey thought. It wasn’t a name that had been called and shouted, whispered, murmured, screamed into the night. Without the resonance of use, it was something like an identifying card on an artefact, a scribble in the margin of the dramatis personae.

Geoffrey wasn’t very good at articulating his thoughts, these days. “Is that what your mother calls you?” he asked, and the disconnection persisted, something to do with this stranger who stayed strange even when labelled.

“Ah, no.” He looked embarrassed. “My mother called me Ben.” For a moment he sat less straight on his stool, stared less intently at Geoffrey and more at the glass.

“I’m sorry,” Geoffrey said.

“What for?”

“Your mother. Past tense.”

“Oh.” He was still slouching, but he looked into Geoffrey’s eyes. The effect was disconcerting, mesmeric; it reminded Geoffrey of protagonist and antagonist in cocooning spotlight, darkness and audience all around. Disconnect, he thought; no-one left in the smoke to answer the phone. “Er... thank you.”

“My mother died recently,” Geoffrey went on, dreamily. “I didn’t go to the funeral, due to my being unavoidably detained at the time.”

“Unavoidably detained?” Ben – he was going to call him Ben, Geoffrey had decided – had moved backwards a few seconds in the conversation, gone back to stiff, cautious. “Sir... I’m sorry, I don’t know your name. But before you speak freely, I think you should know that I’m part of the RCMP.”

Geoffrey frowned until the acronym clicked, and then he laughed, delightedly. “You’re a Mountie?”

Simply: “Yes.”

“It’s a good name for a Mountie.” It wasn’t a label on a historical artefact, Geoffrey decided; it was historical, a symbol. “And,” he added, smiling, “I wasn’t in prison. It was the other type of unavoidably detained.”

“The other type – oh.” He got it. He looked at Geoffrey with slow-burning flickers of understanding. “Sir, I think you and I may be related after all.”

Geoffrey laughed. “I have a name, too. My mother called me Geoffrey.”

“And your friends?”

“I don’t have any, right now.” Geoffrey thought about that. “I have lovers, colleagues, distant relations. I have doctors and therapists. I have” – he was floundering, looking behind him, through the smoke and through the snow – “I have Canada, I suppose.”

“I have Canada, too.” Ben Fraser seemed very, very certain about that; he had the gleam in his eyes Geoffrey had seen in the mirror, sometimes. “I don’t live here now, though.”

“You left the motherland?” Geoffrey asked, half-ironically, and he was surprised; it was difficult, in the atmosphere of smoke and alcohol, to play his usual game of directing, casting, tying the world into narrative. He’d been good at it – he and Oliver and Ellen had played to type all the way through, shining nova-bright, with that same intensity of destruction, and later, the doctors, the nurses, the drugs, they had all made a sterile spectacle of their own, an ecosystem of an institution, drama against a white background. Here, in the smoke, he saw this stranger who looked like him against a backdrop of space, sky, blue expanses; stories of snow, of arctic exploration bubbled up, unbidden, into his mind. It was a vivid image, clear as ice. He supposed it was the drugs.

Fraser nodded. “I went to Chicago on the trail of the killers of my father.”

“That sounds like the start of a story,” Geoffrey said before he could stop himself. “I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be.” Ben grinned, and the change was startling, the resemblance at once more and less pronounced; he had more of Geoffrey’s spark, less of his wariness. “I occasionally wonder to myself, after dark, how events could possibly have come to transpire as they did.”

“I know,” Geoffrey said, softly. “Believe me, I know.” And he understood that, real life as brutal and cold, without theme or beauty, and he placed a gentle hand on Ben’s arm.

“I come from,” and his voice was like Geoffrey’s now, with those same low soliloquy tones, “the far, far north. The land I know best is cold, bleak and either endlessly dark or endlessly light. There are stories told about that place, and they rarely have happy endings.”

Geoffrey said, “You can start a new page.” He grinned. “I’m getting out of here,” and it was the first time he’d said it out loud, to himself, to anyone, "and I’m heading south, to Toronto, and I’m going to start my own theatre company, and it’s going to be a new story. With some of the same characters.”

He was standing up as he said it, pushing the stool back and finishing off the drink, because something like that, a lurch forward in the narrative, needed a physical movement to mirror it, something to ground it in the here and now. To his surprise, Ben was following him, quietly reaching for his jacket and laying down his glass. Together they were walking towards the door, the late daylight coming in cold and icy. Geoffrey saw his breath steam out, a warm cloud of nothing beneath the huge sky.

Something about Ben’s expression cleared, then; or, at least, it became impenetrable in a different way. “You’re Geoffrey Tennant, aren’t you?”

Geoffrey raised his eyebrows. “You heard of me in Chicago?”

“I was visiting home at the time.” Fraser looked embarrassed. “Mostly, I heard of your... performance. That it was quite something. And then, the rest of the story was, was incidental.”

Geoffrey had a strange, unaccountable urge to hug him. He paused, turning a circle on the grey paving stones, looking at the sky, and didn’t do it. “Thank you.”

Fraser nodded. “How long,” he began and stopped. “When did you,” he tried again.

Geoffrey took pity on him. “They let me out about a month ago,” he said cheerfully, “on several conditions. Number one of which was, I shouldn’t drink.”

Ben looked concerned, amused, something else indefinable, in equal proportions. “But you…”

“I try not to,” Geoffrey said, still cheerfully. “But I was – I mean, I am an actor. It’s how we remind ourselves that all the world’s not a stage. You” – he stopped, made an expansive, world-encompassing gesture to bring in sky and snow and horizon – “you know that it’s so much... more. So much bigger than that.”

Ben nodded. “It’s cold out there. Big and cold.” He paused and his voice changed. “Do you smoke?”

Geoffrey dug into his pocket and pulled out a packet of cigarettes, unopened. “I don’t know,” he said honestly. “I did. And my girlfriend – she did. And then I didn’t, because I couldn’t, and now....”

“Me neither.” Ben smiled at him and took the packet from his hand. Quickly, efficiently, so Geoffrey barely saw the flame, he opened it, lit a cigarette, held it out. Geoffrey took it, handed it back, blew out.

The smoke rose, a screen between them and the sky. They walked together beneath the clouds.

finis

on 2007-09-02 05:21 pm (UTC)
tau_sigma: (clouds)
Posted by [personal profile] tau_sigma
Oh, I love your fic. :) Even when I don't know the fandoms terribly well.

on 2007-09-02 08:45 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Thank you, sweetie. I get a wee thrill when people who don't know my fandoms read my fic. *g*

on 2007-09-02 05:39 pm (UTC)
icepixie: (Fraser Canadian)
Posted by [personal profile] icepixie
This is totally how I always envisioned a meeting between the two of them. You rock.

on 2007-09-02 08:46 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Hee, thank you!

on 2007-09-02 06:00 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] buzzylittleb.livejournal.com
Lovely.

on 2007-09-02 08:46 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Thank you. :)

on 2007-09-02 06:49 pm (UTC)
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Posted by [identity profile] ithildyn.livejournal.com
That was perfect!! Thank you so much.

on 2007-09-02 08:46 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Hee, thank you for reading. :)

on 2007-09-02 09:42 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] macadamanaity.livejournal.com
Oh my god. I love you. Marry me? This was the perfect time period for that meeting to happen, because after Oliver has died, there are far too many parallels between him and Fraser for the story to be more than 'omg, you see a dead father(figure) too!?!?!' (Of course, people can and, in fact, should prove me wrong.) And Fraser smoking! Guh. That's an image that will stay with me.

“Sir, I think you and I may be related after all.”

Hee! ::pets them::


(and all this after I was dick enough to be late for my part in the ficathon--it's still coming, I swear!)

on 2007-09-02 10:50 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Sure I'll marry you, honey. *g* And thank you, I'm so glad you liked this! I've never written DS before, y'see. And ah, Fraser smoking - I wasn't sure about leaving that in, because it would be unlike him, even under Geoff's nefarious influence. And then I thought, fuck it, it's hot, and left it. *g*

(and all this after I was dick enough to be late for my part in the ficathon--it's still coming, I swear!)

No worries. As long as it's coming, I have no problem with it. :)

on 2007-09-03 03:50 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] thiswaltz.livejournal.com
Oh my! I never imagined a crossover between these shows since they seemed to exist in different universes but this works so well! A brief meeting but not too brief, personal but not too personal. Perfection.

I really liked the 'name like a lable' line.

on 2007-09-04 12:16 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Thank you! I'm so glad you liked.

And, yes... there's a point in the canon where absolutely no one Fraser sees on a daily basis calls him by his first name. I don't know, that strikes me as oddly terrible.

on 2007-09-03 11:07 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] spuffyduds.livejournal.com
Wow.

This is really quite amazing. Geoffrey's POV is a thing of wonder, because he's got to deal both with the dregs of his madness and with his (probably innate) tendency to story-structure his life, and is that tendency a thing he should struggle against, because it makes life less real, or a thing to embrace because we're all to some degree wired for the story arc and so that's how life is? Injecting physical motion into the narrative after he's made a forward-moving statement, and he knows he's doing it but he still does it, and it turns out to be right.

And opening with a spit take. (A dramatic trope, too.) And noticing that Fraser's name doesn't feel used.

And Fraser! Having chosen to stay in (we presume) Chicago. But still certain that he HAS Canada--that's his happiest ending possible.

Beautifully written and chock-full of ideas and, obviously, made me blithering and incoherent.

on 2007-09-04 12:18 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Oh, thank you, honey! I'm so glad you liked this. Filtering Fraser through Geoffrey's madness was, well, not fun exactly, but a challenge. *g* Thanks so much for reading.

on 2007-09-03 11:10 pm (UTC)
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Posted by [identity profile] keerawa.livejournal.com
I really enjoyed the lyricism of Geoffrey's narration. protagonist and antagonist in cocooning spotlight, darkness and audience all around was particularly striking.

on 2007-09-04 12:18 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Thank you very much! :)

on 2007-09-04 03:20 pm (UTC)
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Posted by [identity profile] hurry-sundown.livejournal.com
*sighs the sigh of the deeply satisfied*

Yup. That's it. Excellent work, baybee.

(btw, am I the only person waiting for someone to write Fraser/Geoffrey? Or am I just the only one willing to admit it?)

on 2007-09-04 03:37 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Thank you kindly! *g*

(Honey! We're all waiting for you to do it! 'Cause, wow, that would be hot. *g*)

on 2007-09-04 10:38 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] vsee.livejournal.com
Very interesting! Bookmarking to reread a few times.

on 2007-09-04 10:52 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Thank you kindly. *g*

on 2007-09-04 11:23 pm (UTC)
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Posted by [identity profile] primroseburrows.livejournal.com
It wasn’t a name that had been called and shouted, whispered, murmured, screamed into the night. Without the resonance of use, it was something like an identifying card on an artefact, a scribble in the margin of the dramatis personae.

This is one of the harshest, loveliest, truest phrases I've heard about Fraser. I think it's really how he sees himself. Leave it to Geoffrey to figure it all out.

In some Bizarro-world, there's a series with these two as best friends. It would so work, because these two would understand each other. And, y'know, be very pretty doing it.

Thanks for writing this. I'd love to see more of the Geoffrey and Fraser Show.

on 2007-09-05 12:01 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
You know the odd thing? I actually live with a polite and gentlemanly guy called Ben Fraser. And I didn't make the connection that they have the same name for, oh, months after I started watching this show. It could just be me being thick, but it's that, I think, that became this story.

And yes, of course, these two would be wonderful together! They'd understand each other after dark, when their non-manic moments coincide, but mostly Fraser would try and get Geoffrey to eat three meals a day and, I don't know, get a haircut, and Geoffrey would keep encouraging Fraser to blow off work and go and feed the ducks. *g* Clearly, I want someone to write me lots 'n' lots of the Geoffrey and Fraser Show.

Thanks so much for commenting. I'm really glad you liked this story. :)

on 2007-09-06 08:50 am (UTC)
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Posted by [identity profile] primroseburrows.livejournal.com
I want someone to write me lots 'n' lots of the Geoffrey and Fraser Show.

They could get a place together. It would be like The Odd Couple: "Can two weird but pretty guys share an apartment without driving each other CRAZIER? *cue kitchy theme song*

on 2007-09-06 03:27 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
"One eats razorblades! The other talks to a wolf! They BOTH SEE DEAD PEOPLE!"

on 2007-09-06 10:39 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] burntcopper.livejournal.com
me, I'm just admiring how you used the language.

on 2007-09-06 11:07 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Thank you. :)

on 2008-03-17 12:42 pm (UTC)
luzula: a Luzula pilosa, or hairy wood-rush (Default)
Posted by [personal profile] luzula
Wow, that's great. I like the contrast between them, it makes me see new things about them both. And your language is beautiful.

Also, the quote at the top of your LJ: "and I tried to remember, but I said, "what's a flower?"". I love that song, and it feels like such a post-CotW story to me.

on 2008-03-17 03:10 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Thank you so much! I'm glad you liked it.

"February" is one of my absolute favourite songs, but it's so very sad! I never really thought about it in CotW terms; do you imagine an unhappy ending for them?

on 2008-03-17 05:41 pm (UTC)
luzula: a Luzula pilosa, or hairy wood-rush (Default)
Posted by [personal profile] luzula
Well, yeah, it is a sad song. And I guess I can see Ray moving to Canada as either working out or not (though of course I'd really want it to work out!). The first time I heard the song, I immediately thought of how it might feel for Ray during his first winter in the north. Although, maybe I was fannishly immersed when I heard it.

Hmm, I always found the last verse of the song hard to interpret. Do you think the relationship ended and the narrator found someone new, or is it the same couple? On the one hand, it's "my new lover", but OTOH, it still uses "we", like it was about the same people, and the narrator gets the keys back that were lost in the beginning. *fails at interpretation*

on 2008-03-18 02:58 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com
Oooh, I never thought that it might be the same couple! Now you come to mention it, it does make sense that way, too. And I kind of want it to be the same couple, because it does have a very coming-full-circle ring to it.

Ray in the north has always worried me a bit; there's so much fic that depicts their happy ending, when I'm not entirely sure it would work out. I mean, there's something unsettling in the thought that Ray gives up everything he knows for Fraser, when their relationship thus far has been shaped and constituted by Fraser-in-Chicago, who is necessarily different from Fraser-up-north.

Er, it is possible I am overthinking this. :)

on 2008-06-07 01:46 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] petronelle.livejournal.com
This works far better than it has any right to work, partially because of the swirling scrim of the background in Geoffrey's mind.

on 2008-07-05 10:39 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] rosariotijeras.livejournal.com
A better reason for being late-ish to work has never existed. Even if it is 6:30 in the morning, and you wrote this a year ago for a stagnant fandom. Seriously. You blew me the fuck away with this. *is working way through every S&A fic ever, not being a creepy stalker, oh shit, did I mention I went to bed three hours ago?* You. Fic. Excellent. The end.

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