raven | Fic:: Shelter From The Storm

Aaaaargh. It is twenty to four. I got in about two hours ago, I could have gone to bed then, and I have to be up before nine goddammit. But no, I thought I'd spend some time editing my Remus/Tonks fic. And I did a couple of pages, broke off and wrote an entirely new fic instead. I am really, really crazy. This fic is... silly.

Anyway. Further to the Tooth And Claw revelation that the Doctor is a confirmed pervy werewolf fancier, I thought Doctor/Remus fic was in order. And I wanted this to be funny or smutty or both. It is not either. Like I said, I am crazy. For

chains_of_irony,

wildestranger,

casirafics and everyone else who thought Doctor/Remus was a good idea.

Fic:: Shelter From The Storm
by Raven
PG, Harry Potter/Doctor Who, slash, crossover

The first time for him is not the first time for the Doctor. The converse is also true; the Doctor steps out of the TARDIS in the summer of 1989 and a man wearing some sort of quasi-religious garb appears like a wraith out of the shadows. “Doctor?”

The Doctor is, by this time, used to strangers addressing him by name. “Hello!” he says cheerfully. “Do I know you?”

“Not yet.” The man grins, and his face lights up. Absently, the Doctor notes that he’s too thin, too pale for this time period – even Thatcher should keep him better fed than this – and quite apart from that, there is something about him, a sense of otherness the Doctor knows too well to ignore.

“I should introduce myself,” continues his new friend. “My name is Remus Lupin.”

“Hello, Remus Lupin.” The Doctor grins.

“And I’m a werewolf.”

The Doctor blinks, but the grin gets broader. “Are you? Are you an alien too? Was that too personal? Am I being rude?”

“No more than usual.” Remus laughs, suddenly. “Do you want a cup of tea?”

The Doctor nods fervently. “I like you already!”

Over the tea, Remus explains. And soon there are notebooks and pencils and large pieces of paper of the sort that the Doctor hasn’t seen since the fall of the Roman Empire, and he’s drawing diagrams and squiggly timelines and linking things with drinking straws. And Remus thinks he’s talking out of his arse, which he is some of the time, and then when the Doctor gets it, when he puts Bendy Straw A into Time Vortex B with a grin of triumph, Remus sits back in his chair ands nods and laughs. He looks faintly ethereal in the late-evening daylight, and the Doctor wonders.

“What did we do, these other times we’ve met?” he asks.

Remus smiles, licks his lips, and somehow the Doctor doesn’t think it‘s the temporal paradoxes that keep him from answering.

*

The Doctor touches Remus’s arm, softly. “Take a moment,” he says. “You’re working too hard.”

“I can’t help it.” Remus leans back, pushes a fretful hand into his hair, closes his eyes. “There’s so much to do. If we don’t find something soon, England is going to be overrun, and since the last battle we’re falling back further and further. I don’t know what to do. Except poke about in dusty old books and wait for a miracle.”

“I wish I could help,” says the Doctor, and at this moment, the Doctor wishes it more than anything else. All he can do is make tea and make Remus laugh, sometimes, and lend a hand pulling down the dusty tomes from the bookcases lining the Bodleian. He looks up at the top shelves with their occasional gap, watching the dust motes swirling in light filtered dusty and ancient.

“I wish you could, too. But it’s my fight.”

“Maybe it’s mine as well,” says the Doctor hopefully. “These Death Eaters of yours – do any of them have funny-coloured eyes? Triangular heads? Large gaping sphincters in unhygienic places?”

Remus laughs, and the sound is a sudden silver bubble. “They’re not aliens, Doctor.” He pauses. “It would be easier if they were....”

“Yes.” The Doctor nods. “Yes, it would be.”

Later, he buys Remus a newspaper – The Guardian, April 15th, 1996 – and gets him some tea leaves from Sainsbury’s, because there are smaller ways of saving the world.

*

September, 2020. The Doctor walks through a garden planted thick with wolfsbane and pansies. He picks one, a purple flash of colour on his palm, and lets it drop. His footsteps are leaving dew-marks on the grass, and the soft, sopping squelches are small eddies of noise in the grey, bleak morning.

For the moment, no one comes. The garden and the cottage are deserted, with no sound but the world, the calling birds and odd, distant rustles. The sea is somewhere close, and the Doctor concentrates on the roar of that, waves lapping in, lapping out, before he reaches the door, the red-stained, gouged-deep claw marks in the wood.

He doesn’t knock. He can’t stay for this.

*

On November 1st, 1981, the Doctor crashes in, weight and strength doing for the door what the sonic screwdriver can’t, running through the hallway, ends up kneeling on the tiles, picking Remus off the kitchen floor and out into the light.

It’s only when they’re facing each other over a steaming kettle, tap running in the silence, that the Doctor dares ask, quietly, “Are you all right?”

Remus shakes his head. “No,” he says softly, desperately, and the Doctor realises how young he is. He looks so different in this time, in this place, a washed-out photo negative without the softened edges of time.

With an ungraceful thump, the Doctor gets up and sits on the table-edge, puts an arm around Remus’s shoulders, and sighs deeply as he feels the tension in Remus’s body ease. The room is cold.

Breathing in time, they sit still as what is left of the night slips quietly away. The dawn is muted and beautiful.

“Remus,” the Doctor says, fingers trailing into Remus’s hair, “listen to me.”

Remus says nothing, but the Doctor feels him nod.

“My TARDIS is outside. I’ve told you about it, I think. Goes anywhere in space and time. Fantastic pick-up line but it’s true at that. Do you remember?”

“Yes.” Remus’s head tilts as he looks up.

“I could take you with me,” the Doctor says quickly. “I could take you away from here as long as you wanted. You could...” – he flounders – “you could see the universe. You could get better.”

For a long, long minute, Remus doesn’t say anything. In the early morning dew-time, the Doctor dares to hope.

“No.” Remus sighs, and the Doctor feels it deep within himself. “I can’t. Harry is still here.”

The Doctor nods, and he doesn’t ask again. He stays for three days, and when he goes Remus watches him, unsmiling, from the kitchen window. The Doctor doesn’t dare look back.

*

The last time – and he knows it has to be the last time, for all timelines wind down to the spool in the end – Remus is standing in a London doorway at night, smoking with lazy, lip-licking nonchalance. There are other boys in the house, laughing and talking, but none with his pallor, his eyes that see only time. He shifts from foot to foot, leaning to one side. The cigarette tip flares.

It’s March 10th, 1978. Remus is eighteen, and the Doctor feels every day of nine hundred. But his footsteps crunch, deliberately, and something quickens in his hearts as Remus looks up at the sound. His eyes are lined with kohl, and his voice, when it comes as a whisper in the dark, is oddly pleasant, blurred with the smoke. “Who’re you, then?”

“A friend.” He consults the psychic paper. “Of Sirius’s. I’m the Doctor.”

Remus nods, steps out into the dimness. His lips are ruby-red in the light from the doorway, then gleaming black in sodium glare. There is grace in his movements, sensuality in the lines of skin that disappear beneath cotton. He gives the Doctor a long, intense stare. “I suppose you’d better come in.”

He turns, taking the light with him. The Doctor follows.

finis

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