Dirty life
May. 13th, 2002 08:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravenAhhh.... I have nothing to do. Makes a pleasant change from "I'm bored" doesn't it?
I'm actually doing my Classics right now, and even more weirdly, I'm enjoying it. It's like I'm just writing yet another piece, and I don't mind that. I can even type it and make it pretty and listen to music while I'm doing it - I don't mind it at all.
I've just noticed - even though it's eight thirty at night on a grey, rainy overcast day, my desk is lit by natural light. I guess this means spring has come.
I want this week to be over and also the one after that. I don't care about anything until then. Right now I don't feel like I'm living, only existing, just one more chunk of protoplasm in a world that's already overflowing with its dirty life. I don't know if anyone knows the song I mean when I call myself comfortably numb.
I can live like this for a while. Without feeling anything life is much easier anyway. I can bring myself back to life whenever I want. I choose not to live this dirty life just yet.
I'm waiting.
I'm actually doing my Classics right now, and even more weirdly, I'm enjoying it. It's like I'm just writing yet another piece, and I don't mind that. I can even type it and make it pretty and listen to music while I'm doing it - I don't mind it at all.
I've just noticed - even though it's eight thirty at night on a grey, rainy overcast day, my desk is lit by natural light. I guess this means spring has come.
I want this week to be over and also the one after that. I don't care about anything until then. Right now I don't feel like I'm living, only existing, just one more chunk of protoplasm in a world that's already overflowing with its dirty life. I don't know if anyone knows the song I mean when I call myself comfortably numb.
I can live like this for a while. Without feeling anything life is much easier anyway. I can bring myself back to life whenever I want. I choose not to live this dirty life just yet.
I'm waiting.