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May. 18th, 2023 10:24 pmSo over the weekend I accidentally came out to my mother. I say, "accidentally" - it was more like when faced with a direct question about that, I just can't find it within myself to lie. I made out like I was surprised she didn't know, but honestly I'm not: she's not very observant, and doesn't like me (the real me, I guess) much.
Anyway I tweeted about it because I was so struck and felt so changed, and I think a bunch of people thought she was the first person I'd come out to, but actually she was the last.
So I'm out. Actually out, to the whole world. No one to hide from. And even being in a little bit of a closet was oppressive, and I didn't know that! It's a cliche but I feel freed. I want to mark it, somehow. I could hold a coming out party. K says I should get a tattoo, not with any deep significance but just as something to mark a queer body. I like that idea. I welcome suggestions for other ideas! But what a time, to be entirely out at age 36. I want to cry at the queerphobic society that means 36, not 16, but this is where we live and I'll take this.
Anyway I tweeted about it because I was so struck and felt so changed, and I think a bunch of people thought she was the first person I'd come out to, but actually she was the last.
So I'm out. Actually out, to the whole world. No one to hide from. And even being in a little bit of a closet was oppressive, and I didn't know that! It's a cliche but I feel freed. I want to mark it, somehow. I could hold a coming out party. K says I should get a tattoo, not with any deep significance but just as something to mark a queer body. I like that idea. I welcome suggestions for other ideas! But what a time, to be entirely out at age 36. I want to cry at the queerphobic society that means 36, not 16, but this is where we live and I'll take this.