Rain

Rain, rain, and more rain. I'm not wet, as I've been inside all day, but it's raining again, and this time with such ferocity it's running down the slope of the garden and collecting in a huge puddle at the bottom. Not nice.

The day has been okay, I guess. I've been reading To Kill a Mockingbird, and also reading through my notes. It's not something I feel is very very important but the exam is soon, so I figure why the hell not. At least it looks like I'm doing something.

Had another fight with my mother this morning. Guess I can forget doing Physics A-level. It also looks like I'm being a doctor, again. I begin to wonder if I really am making a fuss over nothing, as I won't die, won't be struck down by a thunderbolt, won't be harmed in any way. So I don't get to do what I want. At least there will be some peace and quiet, and that's what I want. We resolved the fight this morning, because I agreed with her, so there's been peace and quiet, and if I become a doctor that's what I'll get on a bigger scale. My mother really, really wants this to happen - so why the hell not. I know she'd like for me to make money and marry well and maybe that'll make me happy too.

I think that all I ever wanted was to be good, to do what was right, but I can be so self-centred when I want to be - I keep a public online journal which I update every day, QED - and maybe that's what this has been all about.

I don't want to think about it so much. I've just been looking at my livejournal calendar and noticed I haven't been updating as much - I have a feeling that trend might continue, as I don't want to put myself in a situation in which I may be forced to think about it.

Gacked from scarlatti

I'm sure I've done this one before, but it seems longer and some of my answers have changed, so why the hell not.
( livejournal meme )

"Red and white for blood cells..."

I have a new project for the summer.

Read all one hundred books that were voted for in the BBC's Big Read. The list is here. I could do it. I'll have two months, and besides, I've already read thirty-eight of the hundred. Lots of them are books I want to read, so why not?

It will keep me distracted. And amused.

Hopefully.

Emma and Enid are suggesting I go and see Something Corporate on the 22nd June. I'd like to. Just don't want to see fucking support bands. They all suck.

I think I'm currently in love with OK Go. And the Goo Goo Dolls.

Nirvana were being played on VH1 Classic earlier. The end of the world is nigh.

That is all.