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ravenOh, ye hallowed, familiar depression.
My exams are nearly over. I'm sixteen years old. Saturday will be my first do-nothing-drink-coffee-tease-![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
snowdrop24-and-read-slash day in well over three months, and I was looking forward to it.
But I feel like... ack. Nothing. Apathy. I don't know what I want to do I don't want to do anything. Everything feels dreamlike. I mean, I know I went into school today and did a French listening exam, and I know it went okay apart for a couple of questions near the end, and I know I told someone the capital of Turkey when they asked, and I know I did all these things. But it's only in knowing. I don't feel like I did anything except wander through dreamland.
It was raining the whole day. I feel like I spent the whole day walking through rain, just inside my own head.
Maybe it's because I haven't talked to anyone. That's it, I'd like someone to talk to. It's so quiet here, so lonely. I like the quiet and the silence and I like being left alone, but I'd like someone to talk to. And it needn't be about anything in particular. Just about how my day was, about how their day was, what's happening tomorrow, next week, next year, someone to talk to, that's all.
My exams are nearly over. I'm sixteen years old. Saturday will be my first do-nothing-drink-coffee-tease-
snowdrop24-and-read-slash day in well over three months, and I was looking forward to it.But I feel like... ack. Nothing. Apathy. I don't know what I want to do I don't want to do anything. Everything feels dreamlike. I mean, I know I went into school today and did a French listening exam, and I know it went okay apart for a couple of questions near the end, and I know I told someone the capital of Turkey when they asked, and I know I did all these things. But it's only in knowing. I don't feel like I did anything except wander through dreamland.
It was raining the whole day. I feel like I spent the whole day walking through rain, just inside my own head.
Maybe it's because I haven't talked to anyone. That's it, I'd like someone to talk to. It's so quiet here, so lonely. I like the quiet and the silence and I like being left alone, but I'd like someone to talk to. And it needn't be about anything in particular. Just about how my day was, about how their day was, what's happening tomorrow, next week, next year, someone to talk to, that's all.
