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[raven]

You know what? I don't care about anything tonight. Perhaps it's something to do with the full moon, but I really don't care about any crap tonight. I have a tonne of work to do and several things to worry about, but I'm not worrying. Not because I think it will make me happier not to care, because it doesn't. I'm not happy. I'm not going to be happy. It's cold and dark and windy and I'm realising how easily bored I am. There's nothing to do or to interest me, there's nothing that will keep even a third of my mind active, and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm on the fringes while everyone else fits in and laughs and thinks, this is life. But I don't fucking well care.

Not tonight.