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ravenLast night, was exceptionally bored. Have read thirty pages of articles on Nirvana, read a couple of newspapers, don't really want to go into anything more as have nothing new to say.
Wondered if I ever will land in therapy. Seems more than likely.
So, here is post from last night, as did not have modem with which to post it.
I am supposed to have a routine by now.
I am so tired. I don't need to be told that any more. I don't need anything any more. I have a routine; no-one's taking it from me.
Et voila, my routine:
7.15: Phone alarm goes off
7.25: I wake up. Turn off alarm and go back to sleep.
7.50: Mother storms in and drags me out of bed. Go and get dressed.
8.15: Mother and I leave house, both complaining are 15 minutes late.
8.35: Reach school, just in time to miss registration. Neglect to sign in.
8.40: Go into assembly. Promptly fall asleep again at sight of Mrs Mills/guest speaker/thirds doing positive mental attitude sketches.
9.10: Lessons start. Get books, go to lesson, fall asleep.
10.25: Leave lessons, pick up books, head to computer room, check email, read livejournal friends pages that have accumulated during night. Eat KitKat/peanuts/whatever.
10.45: Go to lessons. Fall asleep on desk.
12.00: Lunchtime. Say hi to Becca, as now am conscious, offer homework help to whoever asks for it, thrust/parry with Helena, go to computer room, meet![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
eniddy/emerald_embers/lilka, then finish with email and morning's friends pages.
12.35: Go into lunch. Eat Philadelphia on bread, throw away crisps, eat strawberries if there.
1.00: Go back to classroom. Sit up on windowsill and try not to roll out of window. Avoid Mme Mistrie.
1.10: Wicked Witch of the West returns. Say "yes" when name is called.
1.15: Pick up books, head to lesson. Stay awake this time.
1.35: Slip own book inside text. Read under desk.
2.30: Leave lesson, return to classroom, lie on table and offer advice to anyone who asks for it. Talk to Becca. Generally act like am human for first time in day.
2.45: Go back to lessons. Resolve to stay awake.
3.10: Fall asleep.
4.00: Finish lessons. Cross quad and daydream. Pick up blazer, say goodbye to friends, go out school front gate.
4.05: Get on bus.
4.10: Bus leaves. Pull out book and read. Share headphones with Libby.
4.30: Get off bus at Grapes. Look around in vain for Pedar.
4.31: Start walking home. Daydream.
5.05: Arrive home. Throw down bag.
5.10: Climb stairs. Collapse on bench, turn on computer, fire up media player, find clothes. Relax vaguely.
5.11: Wander around in tired fashion. Breathe easily.
5.12: Go on internet, immediately start chatting over Trillian to Em. Compare notes on how bad both our days have been. Enjoy self. Check livejournal pages, update own journal, daydream, write, read, laugh.
5.30: Greet Pedar.
6.30: Less enthusiastically greet mother.
7.00: Watch M*A*S*H.
7.30: Start on homework in desultory fashion; watch as Pedar takes modem.
8.30: Finish homework. Sternly grab modem off Pedar. Write, surf net, chat.
9.30: Help mother find food in house. Help her put it together in the right order.
10.00: Eat.
10.30: Watch M*A*S*H again, different episode.
11.00: Go and see Pedar. Chat about what we are both reading. Compare notes on meaning of life, see if we are closer to finding it than day before.
11.30: Shut down computer, fall into bed. Am asleep before computer has switched itself off.
That is how my day goes every day. I am so tired I can't stand up.
Wondered if I ever will land in therapy. Seems more than likely.
So, here is post from last night, as did not have modem with which to post it.
I am supposed to have a routine by now.
I am so tired. I don't need to be told that any more. I don't need anything any more. I have a routine; no-one's taking it from me.
Et voila, my routine:
7.15: Phone alarm goes off
7.25: I wake up. Turn off alarm and go back to sleep.
7.50: Mother storms in and drags me out of bed. Go and get dressed.
8.15: Mother and I leave house, both complaining are 15 minutes late.
8.35: Reach school, just in time to miss registration. Neglect to sign in.
8.40: Go into assembly. Promptly fall asleep again at sight of Mrs Mills/guest speaker/thirds doing positive mental attitude sketches.
9.10: Lessons start. Get books, go to lesson, fall asleep.
10.25: Leave lessons, pick up books, head to computer room, check email, read livejournal friends pages that have accumulated during night. Eat KitKat/peanuts/whatever.
10.45: Go to lessons. Fall asleep on desk.
12.00: Lunchtime. Say hi to Becca, as now am conscious, offer homework help to whoever asks for it, thrust/parry with Helena, go to computer room, meet
eniddy/emerald_embers/lilka, then finish with email and morning's friends pages. 12.35: Go into lunch. Eat Philadelphia on bread, throw away crisps, eat strawberries if there.
1.00: Go back to classroom. Sit up on windowsill and try not to roll out of window. Avoid Mme Mistrie.
1.10: Wicked Witch of the West returns. Say "yes" when name is called.
1.15: Pick up books, head to lesson. Stay awake this time.
1.35: Slip own book inside text. Read under desk.
2.30: Leave lesson, return to classroom, lie on table and offer advice to anyone who asks for it. Talk to Becca. Generally act like am human for first time in day.
2.45: Go back to lessons. Resolve to stay awake.
3.10: Fall asleep.
4.00: Finish lessons. Cross quad and daydream. Pick up blazer, say goodbye to friends, go out school front gate.
4.05: Get on bus.
4.10: Bus leaves. Pull out book and read. Share headphones with Libby.
4.30: Get off bus at Grapes. Look around in vain for Pedar.
4.31: Start walking home. Daydream.
5.05: Arrive home. Throw down bag.
5.10: Climb stairs. Collapse on bench, turn on computer, fire up media player, find clothes. Relax vaguely.
5.11: Wander around in tired fashion. Breathe easily.
5.12: Go on internet, immediately start chatting over Trillian to Em. Compare notes on how bad both our days have been. Enjoy self. Check livejournal pages, update own journal, daydream, write, read, laugh.
5.30: Greet Pedar.
6.30: Less enthusiastically greet mother.
7.00: Watch M*A*S*H.
7.30: Start on homework in desultory fashion; watch as Pedar takes modem.
8.30: Finish homework. Sternly grab modem off Pedar. Write, surf net, chat.
9.30: Help mother find food in house. Help her put it together in the right order.
10.00: Eat.
10.30: Watch M*A*S*H again, different episode.
11.00: Go and see Pedar. Chat about what we are both reading. Compare notes on meaning of life, see if we are closer to finding it than day before.
11.30: Shut down computer, fall into bed. Am asleep before computer has switched itself off.
That is how my day goes every day. I am so tired I can't stand up.
