When it hurts, make it better with pills

[raven]

My head hurts. It hurts a lot and I shouldn't be typing or writing or reading or breathing. It hurts so much I can't think properly and when that happens I just want to go to sleep and wait for it all to be over. I want to wake up to a brand new day without any of the crap from this one. I don't want to live like this. I'm not depressed, just disembodied. It's like I can see myself from far, far away, like there's a part of me looking down on myself typing, and I don't like what I see. I want this to go away. I don't want to sound like I'm depressed when I'm not. I hate taking pills. I don't want to do that either. That's why my head hurts so much and I don't want to "take something for it." That would mask the pain, not make it go away. No pill works wonders. They all make you feel better for a while, then wear off. That's true for everything. Nothing makes you happy forever. You're happy for a while, then you sink back.
When it hurts, make it better with pills. That's the whole of the Western world ideology, and where has it got us? A dysfunctional, hurting society trying to look pretty for the camera, that's all. It hurts, and I don't want to take pills. It will always hurt.