twentysomething insomniac seeks baseball bat to the head

Today, I did not sleep and did not sleep, and saw sunrise from the wrong side, and did not sleep, and woke up with a start at 2.20pm to find someone had stolen my toothpaste.

Now it's 2.20am and I'm writing Nisus/Euryalus and eating cinnamon-flavoured gobstoppers. Here, have my writing-Nisus/Euryalus-at-2.20am-and-eating-gobstoppers playlist.

Ryan Adams - Cracks in a Photograph
ladies in a corner want to borrow my smokes / as if returning them would do any good

I love this. It's slow, it's melancholy - it comes off an album called "The Suicide Handbook", for heaven's sake - and I've been using it as a lullaby lately, over and over until it leads me into sleep. It's basically the musical equivalent of a baseball bat to the head.

Emilie Autumn - Swallow
I will swallow / if it will help my sea level go down

I'm going through a bit of an Emilie Autumn phase, it must be admitted. And this is hypnotic and samey and I have no idea why I've had it stuck on repeat for two days, but I have. It's got a certain something.

Emilie Autumn - Opheliac
studies show intelligent girls are more depressed

I shouldn't like this nearly as much as I should. It's screechy, it's like Jack Off Jill (but better), it's full of woe and angst and shouty shouty pain, and I looooove it.

Train - Drops of Jupiter
can you imagine no first dance freeze-dried romance five-house phone conversation the best soy latte that you ever had and me?

It's cheesy! It's overblown! Everything else they ever did was shite! But it's marvellous regardless, and I just typed that lyric out from memory, woe is me.

Texas - In Demand
wrote my name in silver sands

Sharleen Spiteri and Alan Rickman dancing around a petrol station. Made of love.

Snow Patrol - Hands Open
I want to hear you laugh like you really mean it / collapse into me tired with joy

I've uploaded this about five times before, but I still love it. It's cheery, for a given value of cheery.

Emilie Autumn - Juliet
the consequence is hanging there / the sky will fall but I don't care

I did mention the Emilie Autumn phase. This one is very different from the others, off "Enchant", and I love it but I love it particularly at about 4.47 when for some reason it turns into what sounds like Greensleeves.

Sarah McLachlan - River
but it don't snow here / it stays pretty green

I have a confession: I like music with sleigh bells in all year round. You can all disown me now.

Riiiight. Now I try to go to bed.