Literary thoughts

I never remember my dreams unless I'm woken up in the middle of them.
I did remember them this morning, but they've gone now. It was my mother, who is always surprised when she uses my hairdryer (in my room!) and I wake up. She thought it providential. I disagreed. I fail to see how an hour's extra sleep this morning could have made a different to my GCSEs, but in any case, there I was, awake at nine am and not too happy about it.

I will have to go through my notes for the AQA Anthology poetry. Not that I feel like it will make much difference at this stage - I'm still afraid I'm going to fuck the whole thing up on Wednesday. I don't care about the Drama so much - can fuck that up and welcome - but I don't want to give anyone any ammunition, if, say, I fuck up English Literature and do much better in, say, Biology. Talking of Biology, if I had the bottle I'd walk out of the exam. I couldn't knowingly answer questions wrongly, so that would leave the option of just leaving the paper blank. But I won't do that, I know. I may not revise a great deal, but I'll do the goddamn paper to the best of my ability. So much for being a rebel.

I came to the conclusion not long ago that I am not a literary person, like lilka or purplerainbow or gamesiplay, who all are. They all write exceptionally well, but they also have a knowledge and understanding of literature that I simply don't have or care to acquire. I appreciate prose, but I'm dense about poetry, and in any case, I'd find it easier anaylsing an amino acid than a piece of writing. That seems to be the way it is.

In the meantime, I have to do the bloody exam, so revision it is.

The Dope vs. the soapbox

_detroit has for years been trying to persuade me to come to the soapbox to play. She likes it very much. I've never been much of a message board person, so I never took her up on her offer. However, today was different. Today, I was bored, and more significantly, the Dope was down. It seems to be constantly inactive lately. Damn hamsters. Anyway, as it was down, I decided to finally make myself known at the other place. So off I went.

Immediately, I was struck by the similarities. They both use the same basic message board template, so that was unsettling to begin with. I'm comfortable with the familiar Dope forums - The Pit, Café Society, IMHO and MPSIMS - so these were a shock to the system. Then there's the other similarity - _detroit informed me that Courtney Love herself does appear every so often. At the other board, Cecil Adams appears every so often.

But then, the differences. The Straight Dope is minimalist in the extreme - it uses dull greys as its main colour scheme and has avatars and the < img > tag disabled. The soapbox is a riot of colour in contrast. The Dope is full of established posters and people who all know each other. Now, I may be wrong, but I don't feel the same is the case at the soapbox, especially as it's got so many more people as members. Then, the inhabitants of the Dope are abrasive and scathing, delight in pissing people off, and value knowlege above all things... and I rest my case.

I'm bored, in case you couldn't tell. I'm sick of revision.