A denial

Today... I don't really feel like writing about it. It wasn't that great. Went to Whiston in the morning and spent the morning on the net, mostly reading a slashfic Hathor recommended. It was a good one - very, very funny.


And then missed half of Enterprise because of lecture from mother, then translating poetry for that irritating man.
Tell me, how crappy is this?

"I am the pollen of a flower in a forest of flowers,
Make me swing, make me fly.
At your touch, I forget my troubles.
You come alone, an illusion of sweet music in a garden of flowers.
In the mad wind, we both dance and laugh.
The honey-bees fly in the wind as if they are sailing,
They laugh all the way as they go for honey in the forest of flowers.
In the spring wind, the jasmine flowers dance on the branches,
Petals fall as they dance to the rhythm.
The evening finishes, flowing like a river in a garden.
In the spring in a garden of flowers, buds are blossoming.
Oh, moonlight, spread your laughter and your smiles as far as you can."

Yuk-yuk. I have to translate this crap.
Am now writing Enemy Mine. It's better than before, touchwood.

Addiction

I think I'm addicted to this stuff.

He then said he still cared for me as a friend, and I said that he cared for me as a friend that he’d like to have insane and illegal sex with given half the chance (Maybe it WAS three glasses of wine. Ooops.) and he admitted he’d thought about what I looked like naked on a daily basis since January. I called him a wuss for not following it up and accused him of being scared of Jack, and explained that I resented his wussiness immensely because I wanted to be FUCKED, not to put too fine a point on it.

I enjoyed admitting that. Honesty is most definitely the best policy. Paul enjoyed me admitting it too. He admitted that kissing me in the hotel room in Washington was madly erotic because of the danger factor (i.e. Jack) involved. I blithely admitted that dangerous liaisons drove me wild, and I didn’t mean the movie with John Malkovich, although Uma Thurman half naked did do something for me, but that was only because I was human.

Then the door-buzzer thingummy went and I had to hang up to let Jack in.

No, really.