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Becca sending me lyrics... Enid if you're reading this, don't forget the code!

how 'bout getting off of these antibiotics
how 'bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how 'bout them transparent dangling carrots
how 'bout that ever elusive kudo
>
thank you India
>thank you terror
>thank you disillusionment
>thank you frailty
>thank you consequence
>thank you thank you silence
>
>how 'bout me not blaming you for everything
>how 'bout me enjoying the moment for once
>how 'bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
>how 'bout grieving it all one at a time
>
>thank you India
>thank you terror
>thank you disillusionment
>thank you frailty
>thank you consequence
>thank you thank you silence
>
>the moment I let go of it was
>the moment I got more than I could handle
>the moment I jumped off of it was
>the moment I touched down
>
>how 'bout no longer being masochistic
>how 'bout remembering your divinity
>how 'bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
>how 'bout not equating death with stopping
>
>thank you India
>thank you Providence
>thank you disillusionment
>thank you nothingness
>thank you clarity
>thank you thank you silence

I'm having a small mental crisis. A lot of doubts, a banging headache, and real boredom - why are we all always bored? It's a disease and we try to ignore it... we think thatif we do ignore it, it will go away. It won't.