I'm in a maths lesson, but it's not as if I'm doing any work. I mean, everyone knows what an inspiring teacher is. It's someone who makes you feel like you want to work hard and do well and really take pleasure in their subject. However, my maths teacher is exactly the opposite. I wanted to do some work, but the moment she started talking and getting on my case and simply being there, the perverse part of me wanted to just laze around and waste the next half hour just to piss her off. And to make things worse, we met Mrs Mills on the way up here. I can't say I ever had much respect for that woman, but what there was has completely gone. I can't take seriously a woman who is so close-minded. Anyway, she met me and Helena and asked, sarcastically, "Is this the end of the maths lesson?"
It was two o'clock. Helena said, "We're on the way to the computer room."
"Which set are you in?"
"The top one," I said, without a hint of smugness. "Mrs Jopling's."
"Ah."
And she wandered off, small and purplish and so far removed from the school's regular inhabitants she could be from another planet.
So here I am in the computer room, not doing any work. I don't like it. I would like to be productive and not self-loathing. But I can't. I don't feel inspired or motivated or anything like that. Just a five minute encounter with these two teachers makes me feel dull and tired and worthless.
It was two o'clock. Helena said, "We're on the way to the computer room."
"Which set are you in?"
"The top one," I said, without a hint of smugness. "Mrs Jopling's."
"Ah."
And she wandered off, small and purplish and so far removed from the school's regular inhabitants she could be from another planet.
So here I am in the computer room, not doing any work. I don't like it. I would like to be productive and not self-loathing. But I can't. I don't feel inspired or motivated or anything like that. Just a five minute encounter with these two teachers makes me feel dull and tired and worthless.
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on 2002-11-27 06:34 am (UTC)Don't work!
You have your right, nay, your perogative, to be young, and idle, and not do your maths coursework!!!!!!!
Listen to me, I know what I'm talking about...
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on 2002-11-27 06:41 am (UTC)no subject
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on 2002-11-27 02:06 pm (UTC)Whoever heard of recreational modern languages? Honestly, I ask you.