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raven ([personal profile] raven) wrote2013-09-17 08:07 pm

anxiety

Things that are causing me to be anxious at the moment, a non-exhaustive list:

1. Sleeping (ahaha, it is a hollow laughter);

2. Wedding, comma, the one this weekend (what if it all goes wrong! what if everyone hates everyone else! what if the friend-of-a-friend band don't turn up! what if I FALL ON MY FACE! what if the carefully constructed schedule all falls to pieces! my entire family are coming! it will be just another instance of my inability to do anything right! (see also 5!) oh hell);

3. Wedding, comma, the one in December, the one that is ages away (ages away! ages! John Lewis are selling Christmas stuff!);

4. Welcome to Night Vale (I haven't listened to the latest episode - what if Carlos and Cecil break up? what will I doooo? self, are you really so invested in a half-hour podcast about made-up people? yes yes yes, oh help)

5. Continued unemployment (I had three job interviews last week - it looks like I have not got any of the three jobs);

6. [livejournal.com profile] yuletide nominations (it looks so complicated! there has been so much on it I've missed! if I nominate anything it will all go wrong and I will be one of those people who cannot follow simple instructions!);

7. Writing. Can't do it any more. Not a word. Making a speech on Saturday that I haven't written. Hi.

Largely due to (1) and (3), I am not on Twitter or Tumblr a lot this week.

Things that are not causing me to be anxious at the moment, an exhaustive list:

1. Shim;

2. Parks and Recreation (post coming on WHY I LOVE THIS STUPID SHOW SO MUCH, spoilers it has to do with municipal land use and planning!);

3. BBC Alba (I wish I were kidding. I just watched a thoughtful news report on the status of minority languages in Europe. I understood about one word in ten. It was great.).

4. Shim.

[personal profile] stained_glass 2013-09-18 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
Ah, dear one! *HUGS!* For wedding at least, I can reassure that all your friends love you and will be with you and even if something did go wrong we'd all laugh and have a lovely time, because we're just looking forward to celebrating you and Shim and how wonderful you both are and how wonderful you are together. For the rest, God knows I am the least suitable person to talk in any way sensibly about anxiety, but the fact about your friends all loving you remains, and if there's anything at all I can do please just say. <3

[identity profile] loneraven.livejournal.com 2013-09-18 11:06 pm (UTC)(link)
<3 <3