anxiety

[raven]

Things that are causing me to be anxious at the moment, a non-exhaustive list:

1. Sleeping (ahaha, it is a hollow laughter);

2. Wedding, comma, the one this weekend (what if it all goes wrong! what if everyone hates everyone else! what if the friend-of-a-friend band don't turn up! what if I FALL ON MY FACE! what if the carefully constructed schedule all falls to pieces! my entire family are coming! it will be just another instance of my inability to do anything right! (see also 5!) oh hell);

3. Wedding, comma, the one in December, the one that is ages away (ages away! ages! John Lewis are selling Christmas stuff!);

4. Welcome to Night Vale (I haven't listened to the latest episode - what if Carlos and Cecil break up? what will I doooo? self, are you really so invested in a half-hour podcast about made-up people? yes yes yes, oh help)

5. Continued unemployment (I had three job interviews last week - it looks like I have not got any of the three jobs);

6. yuletide nominations (it looks so complicated! there has been so much on it I've missed! if I nominate anything it will all go wrong and I will be one of those people who cannot follow simple instructions!);

7. Writing. Can't do it any more. Not a word. Making a speech on Saturday that I haven't written. Hi.

Largely due to (1) and (3), I am not on Twitter or Tumblr a lot this week.

Things that are not causing me to be anxious at the moment, an exhaustive list:

1. Shim;

2. Parks and Recreation (post coming on WHY I LOVE THIS STUPID SHOW SO MUCH, spoilers it has to do with municipal land use and planning!);

3. BBC Alba (I wish I were kidding. I just watched a thoughtful news report on the status of minority languages in Europe. I understood about one word in ten. It was great.).

4. Shim.

Comments

[bibliotropic.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
Yay Shim!
I am feeling anxious enough myself that this will probably be incoherent and not helpful, but I'll do my best.
Re: 2. Everything could go wrong, and it will still be fine. I promise. So many things went wrong on my wedding and it was still beautiful and special and fine. The desired result was achieved. Guests talked about what a great time they had and most didn't even know that anything had gone wrong.
Re: 4. Breathe. If it will help you sleep/alleviate anxiety, drop me an e-mail and I'll spoil you without spoiling you. I mean, I'll just address the pertinent detail.

[loneraven.livejournal.com]

<3 you are the best. I am so sorry you're also feeling anxious, it sucks. I finally listened to Night Vale last night - by expedient of falling asleep to it - and now I feel a lot better. Oh shoooooow.

[bibliotropic.livejournal.com]

I've been falling asleep to Night Vale, too, so much that I think it would be appropriate to have a Glow Cloud pillow. It would be so cuddly and ALL HAIL.

Sleeping can be very helpful for anxiety. Or, for me, eating... I try to eat before I tell anyone that everything is misery, because it often makes a difference. I am so glad you're feeling better! I am very Eee! and YAY! about your wedding... I know the anxiety of such things, but really, it's just so, so Eee! and YAY! Iona! Eee!