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So my life is full of extraordinary things I'm not allowed to talk about. But they are extraordinary things; and though I haven't been dealing with human fallibility well by which I mean my own, I'm glad to be doing the work I do; I'm glad that because of the work I do I have been invited to three work team Christmas lunches on three consecutive days; I'm glad the civil service choir are practising in the stairwell and that if the winter comes as a long spear the tip is diamond-bright.

I am glad to be nearly thirty years old and to look it, suddenly; I found a snarl of grey in my hair and saw just for an instant someone I'm going to be. Perhaps it's strange to find that an extraordinary thing but it's coming at a time where I keep seeing those glimpses; I'm still being piecemeal appraised but my supervisor has been saying, make a note of this thing and that thing, it may be years from now but you will go before a board again. The last time I did was the last time I felt like this - like I was shedding a past self despite myself - and that was another winter. It's the time of year.

Also, my teacher watched me slowly, painfully pick what I could out of a bit of Gaelic poetry, and said, "You have a mind like a steel trap" - which made me so wonderfully and instantly happy that I'm writing it down here. I have been thinking about the language a lot just recently, and why I love it so much, so deeply, without being able to articulate a single thing about why. But I am glad to have it, to have found it, to be held by it. Tha mo cuid-Ghàidhlig ro mhòr, ach làtha na làithean, msaa.

on 2016-11-04 07:01 am (UTC)
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Posted by [personal profile] lamentables
I am envious of your Gaelic passion.
I think the steel trap of your mind is cunningly decorated and also sparkly.

on 2016-11-04 03:58 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] not-hathor.livejournal.com
I've often wished that I had both the time and the money to study Linguistics. I find Languages in general fascinating -- I remember when I took a general course in Linguistics AND first year Swedish in college, how delighted I was at discovering various parallels between Swedish and English, how a word from the Swedish (Nordic) might mean ALMOST the same thing in English (Anglo) -- but not quite!

Good for you with the Gaelic!

on 2016-11-19 06:59 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile] littlered2.livejournal.com
You *do* have a mind like a steel trap. I'm so glad your teacher said that.

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